The morning of my third day with A Course in Miracles. I have to say I’ve been waking up in an unusually cheerful mood these last few days. Hard not to smile, feel glad, slightly warm inside.

Today I work from home. Today I aim for patience and gratitude, knowing that these two qualities will bring me peace.

Patience with my laptop and network, patience with the people who email and phone me. Gratitude for my employers, gratitude for my colleagues. Patience and gratitude to all.

“The value of deciding in advance what you want to happen is simply that you will perceive the situation as a means to make it happen. You will therefore make every effort to overlook what interferes with the accomplishment of your objective”

I will report back on my day later on.

Later on…

Well, I didn’t lose my patience at work today. I didn’t swear, or gossip (not hard seeing as I’m working from home today). At lunch time I stopped and watched a couple of A Course in Miracles video clips on You Tube.

Then, in the late afternoon an email sailed into my inbox and I felt myself tighten up. The email was (or so it felt) a direct attack on my authority…I felt myself heat up, contract…frustration and annoyance bubbled away…I knew what would happened if I responded to the email in anger. Yes, I could start a war and yes I could probably win it…but at what price?

My happiness.

That would be the price, I knew that instinctively. I paced around the room, took some breaths and said aloud:

“I don’t want this!”

I felt calmer, I knew what to do. I sat down at my desk and calmly wrote an email. No war, no battle. So, that is good.

After work was tougher. An unhappy wife and a rebellious six year tested my resolve, my desire for peace…oh, this is hard work.

But I’m only on the third day…the important thing is not to give in.

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